Wednesday, December 31, 2008

happy new year to all of you out there in blog land!!!!!

as i sit here and write on this 31st day of december in the year of our lord 2008 i think back on all of the things that has happened. and there is many many things that we have to be greatful for and some we are sadden by, but this is life right now i am very thankful my father in law is doing alright enough to be out of the hospital, although tomorrow must take him back and hope that the doc had enough common sense as to call them so they are aware what needs to be done instead of me having to explain it all. ok that rant is done on to the other things i want4ed to say

i m very thankful i have my family and for my husband to have a decent paying job that we are able to support our life style, granted is not rich at all, but we dont go to bed hungry and if we do is our own fault lol

, i am also thankful for my son and daughter having decent jobs, hoping thay they continue to be prosperous,

i am also thankful for all of my sisters and you all know who you are, my mate jacqui darl i love you dearly,
fran my special friend i miss you so much i hope your puter problem gets fixed very soon
kathy, dorothy, michele. joyce. mary,cheryl,heather,packyann all of you who are my special sisters in our new home,i love you all

for all who i have missed these last few weeks,please have patience for this tired old lady hang in there and be kind to each other will right more later, a special friend lady_of_roses for being such a kind caring friend and my friend jean who is so much fun to tease godbless all of you
please remember it is not how much money you have but the amount of friends you have that counts makes me feel like a million bucks you just can't lose when you are as blessed as me, so to all of you my friends, those named and those i didn;t does not mean i love you less am just tired hehehe so happy new year and god bless you all

love always vicki.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

must have been a goofup on blogger

i swear i am losing my mind, yesterday i tried to log in to my blog to see if anyone had saw anything different on my blog cause all i got was bandwidth exceeded. obviously i don;t have THAT many pics on and it was a glitch somewhere in the system thank god is back now . i have been busy crocheting some gifts and am hoping to make some things to sell i did get a order for some heat packs made with flannel and rice so this week will get that going and also she wants some pot holders and maybe a couple dish hanging towels so am excited about that will help with Christmas money although won;t be much but hey any helps right? hope you all have had a restful holiday, keeping those of you who are missing your kids in my prayers i can;t imagine how hard that must be so hopefully they will all come to their senses. i know most everyone had turkey over thanksgiving , we had filet mingone and now I am hungry for of all things turkeys lol so might get a turkey breast next week and bake it yummm turkey sandwhiches yummm damn now i am hungry mooowahahahahahahahaha take care and back soon hugs and love for you all

Friday, November 28, 2008

what is going on

i do not understand why this is posted on my blog, photobucket says i have exeeded band width and since i have not posted anything im at a loss as to why has anyone else had this problem if so contact me please otherwise i don; know what to say
hope you all have a great weekend hugs

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

happy thanksgiving everyone

i wanted to just take the time to stop and wish all my american friends and anyone else who celebrates this day of thanksgiving, i want to list a few things i am thankful for and feel free to do the same for yourself if you respond

1. i am thankful for my family

2 i am thankful for my friends

3 i am thankful for my health and for my dear friend dorothy who is having some issues which i won;t go into, but the doc made her day today when he told her she would NOT have to have surgery thank you jesus for this

4. i am thankful that i have more than enough to eat and that i can go to bed and not worry if there will be any food to feed me breakfast knowing my cupboards are full

5.i am thankful that we can speechve subjects and we are not arrested for speaking our opinions.that we can agree to disagree with those who are in power.

6 i am thankful to the kid down at S&S tire where i took my car in today when i had a flat tire after hubby filled it and no charge how cool is that, well i am going to post this but i will be adding on soon, need to go to bed lol

7. i am thankful for the doctor i have now who does understand that to live in horrific pain does NOT have to happen , that he can help me with medication and NOT treat me like a drug addict.

8. i am thankful i have a hubby who trys to understand my addiction to yarn and only shakes his head when he sees it lol

9. i am thankful for all of you who read this blog, without you reading it why would i bother to even post would be like talking to myself

10. and last but not least am thankful for being a
American and so very thankful for those who are in harms way fighting for my family and all of my fellow Americans right to be free. to keep and bear arms and uphold the constitution, without these mighty warriors who knows where we would be, so wether or not you support the war(few do) you need to support the men and women who are over seas away from their families in this holiday season that they remain safe and that they KNOW how much we appreciate them god bless all of you and god bless the united states of America of which I AM PROUD TO BE A AMERICAN and god bless all of you i love you all

Friday, November 21, 2008

i'm almost done

woohoo almost done with my house, well at least the dining room, as some of you know i have been weeding thru my yarns trying to destash enough to get the dining room back into a dining room am almost done and only have a small amount of yarn left to give away. for those i have promised(enid and terrijo i have yours put aside, an jean trying to find stuff you would like) i am pretty much done giving it away.

im so darn tired now though am relaxing a bit today before i have to get up and get busy on the rest of the house. the nice thing about this is hubby said he will buy me a nice reclyner for me to sleep in i am soooo excited, this love seat sucks as a bed but i can not lay flat and this is all i can do.

so now i have to worry about christmas cause have gotten NOTHING bought ot made even am screwed or will be off line for a while to get things done lol anyways talk to ya all love and squeezes vicki

Sunday, November 16, 2008

morning ya all

today is hubbys and sons birthdays, hard to believe 27 years ago i gave birth to my son and for him to be born on his dads bday well we still are in amazment of it happening, today we cleaned house like crazy and my back is killing me its a long ways from being ready to go for the holidays but maybe good enough to have their party tomorrow soon it will be christmas before ya know it are you ready> i know i certainly am not. i have so many people to take care of this year is amazing if i get it done, am exchanging with kookalastar on ccp for the holidays or at least i am sending to her and am trying to figure out how much i want to spend on postage, i know what i want to make her but damn i also know would cost a frigging fortune to send so can;t do that but she did say she wanted seraphina shawl so am going to download rose reds version cause the other one is all messed up and make her that keeping my fingers crossed she don't visit my blog if sio well oh well is not all im sending her so will still be a nice package, also sending to my friend jean and her hubby in canada. not sure what i am going to do with nance and her family she don;t bother to call me or anything hell she don't even answer her phone, i still owe packages to joyce honey i have NOT forgotten you i am working on getting it all together and have to find the blankies son put them away for me
sigh i know he wants to help but he makes sooo much more work for me, but this next week come hell or high water or maybe both if it starts raining again lol they will be on your way to you will ship as quick as i can afford but it is a BIG box lots of yarns for ya for being so patient for all of it i love you my friend thank you

the winner of our raffle on ccp is dorothys girls i hope she enjoys getting spoiled lol michele i hope things work out for you with hubby i know he isn't normally like that but men are men what can i say hugs to you all am off soon for bed take care ya all am hurting so bad tonight i have nothing positive to say so am headed to bed where only my dreams will haunt me, and nothing else will as the days go by. hugs and love to you all, kari i hope your alright sweetie i worry about you hugs for ya all night love and blessings vicki

Friday, November 14, 2008

hey ya all

am so sorry been so long, life right now has not been real good for me and im having a hard time dealing with it sorry i just don't have alot of good things to say so instead of blogging bad rude things(cause really how much does it really help) well alright it does but its not nice lmao talk to ya soon hugs and love vicki

Friday, September 26, 2008

what do you think of the national crisis?

personally i think it stinks thats all i have to say about it

Thursday, September 18, 2008


* Accept that some days you're the pigeon,
and some days you're the statue.

* Always keep your words soft and sweet,
just in case you have to eat them.

* Always read stuff that will make you look good
if you die in the middle of it.

* Drive carefully.
It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.

* If you can't be kind,
at least have the decency to be vague.

* If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again,
it was probably worth it.

* It may be that your sole purpose in life
is simply ...
to serve as a warning to others.

* Never buy a car you can't push.

* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time,
because then you won't have a leg to stand on.

* Nobody cares if you can't dance well.
Just get up and dance!

* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird,
sleep late.

* The second mouse gets the cheese.

* When everything's coming your way,
you're in the wrong lane.

* Birthdays are good for you.
The more you have, the longer you live.

* You may be only one person in the world,
but you may also be the world to one person.

! Some mistakes are too much fun
to only make once !

* We could learn a lot from crayons.
Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull.
Some have weird names, and all are different colors,
but they all have to live in the same box.

A truly happy person is one who can
enjoy the scenery on a detour!

Life is like a grindstone,
whether it grinds you down or polishes you
depends on what you’re made of.


tips for understanding how pain effects our lives

1. People with chronic pain seem unreliable (we can't count on ourselves). When feeling better we promise things (and mean it); when in serious pain, we may not even show up.

2. An action or situation may result in pain several hours later, or even the next day. Delayed pain is confusing to people who have never experienced it.

3. Pain can inhibit listening and other communication skills. It's like having someone shouting at you, or trying to talk with a fire alarm going off in the room. The effect of pain on the mind can seem like attention deficit disorder. So you may have to repeat a request, or write things down for a person with chronic pain. Don't take it personally, or think that they are stupid.

4. The senses can overload while in pain. For example, noises that wouldn't normally bother you, seem too much.

5. Patience may seem short. We can't wait in a long line; can't wait for a long drawn out conversation.

6. Don't always ask "how are you" unless you are genuinely prepared to listen it just points attention inward.

7. Pain can sometimes trigger psychological disabilities (usually very temporary). When in pain, a small task, like hanging out the laundry, can seem like a huge wall, too high to climb over. An hour later the same job may be quite OK. It is sane to be depressed occasionally when you hurt.

8. Pain can come on fairly quickly and unexpectedly. Pain sometimes abates after a short rest. Chronic pain people appear to arrive and fade unpredictably to others.

9. Knowing where a refuge is, such as a couch, a bed, or comfortable chair, is as important as knowing where a bathroom is. A visit is much more enjoyable if the chronic pain person knows there is a refuge if needed. A person with chronic pain may not want to go anywhere that has no refuge ( place to sit or lie down).

10. Small acts of kindness can seem like huge acts of mercy to a person in pain. Your offer of a pillow or a cup of tea can be a really big thing to a person who is feeling temporarily helpless in the face of encroaching pain.

11. Not all pain is easy to locate or describe. Sometimes there is a body-wide feeling of discomfort, with hard to describe pains in the entire back, or in both legs, but not in one particular spot you can point to. Our vocabulary for pain is very limited, compared to the body's ability to feel varieties of discomfort.

12. We may not have a good "reason" for the pain. Medical science is still limited in its understanding of pain. Many people have pain that is not yet classified by doctors as an officially recognized "disease". That does not reduce the pain, - it only reduces our ability to give it a label, and to have you believe us.

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If you want to understand , read this


Having chronic pain means many things change, and a lot of them are invisible. Unlike having cancer or being hurt in an accident, most people do not understand even a little about chronic pain and its effects, and of those that think they know, many are actually misinformed.

In the spirit of informing those who wish to understand ...
... These are the things that I would like you to understand about me before you judge me...

Please understand that being sick doesn't mean I'm not still a human being. I have to spend most of my day in considerable pain and exhaustion, and if you visit, sometimes I probably don't seem like much fun to be with, but I'm still me-- stuck inside this body. I still worry about school, my family, my friends, and most of the time - I'd still like to hear you talk about yours, too.

Please understand the difference between "happy" and "healthy". When you've got the flu, you probably feel miserable with it, but I've been sick for years. I can't be miserable all the time. In fact, I work hard at not being miserable. So, if you're talking to me and I sound happy, it means I'm happy. That's all. It doesn't mean that I'm not in a lot of pain, or extremely tired, or that I'm getting better, or any of those things. Please don't say, "Oh, you're sounding better!" or "But you look so healthy!¨ I am merely coping. I am sounding happy and trying to look normal. If you want to comment on that, you're welcome.

Please understand that being able to stand up for ten minutes doesn't necessarily mean that I can stand up for twenty minutes, or an hour. Just because I managed to stand up for thirty minutes yesterday doesn't mean that I can do the same today. With a lot of diseases you're either paralyzed, or you can move. With this one, it gets more confusing everyday. It can be like a yo-yo. I never know from day to day, how I am going to feel when I wake up. In most cases, I never know from minute to minute. That is one of the hardest and most frustrating components of chronic pain.

Please repeat the above paragraph substituting, "sitting", "walking", "thinking", "concentrating", "being sociable" and so on ... it applies to everything. That's what chronic pain does to you.

Please understand that chronic pain is variable. It's quite possible (for many, it's common) that one day I am able to walk to the park and back, while the next day I'll have trouble getting to the next room. Please don't attack me when I'm ill by saying, "But you did it before!" or Oh, come on, I know you can do this!" If you want me to do something, then ask if I can. In a similar vein, I may need to cancel a previous commitment at the last minute. If this happens, please do not take it personally. If you are able, please try to always remember how very lucky you are--to be physically able to do all of the things that you can do.

Please understand that "getting out and doing things" does not make me feel better, and can often make me seriously worse. You don't know what I go through or how I suffer in my own private time. Telling me that I need to exercise, or do some things to get my mind off of it¨ may frustrate me to tears, and is not correct if I was capable of doing some things any or all of the time, don't you know that I would? I am working with my doctor and I am doing what I am supposed to do. Another statement that hurts is, "You just need to push yourself more, try harder..." Obviously, chronic pain can deal with the whole body, or be localized to specific areas. Sometimes participating in a single activity for a short or a long period of time can cause more damage and physical pain than you could ever imagine. Not to mention the recovery time, which can be intense. You can't always read it on my face or in my body language. Also, chronic pain may cause secondary depression (wouldn't you get depressed and down if you were hurting constantly for months or years?), but it is not created by depression.

Please understand that if I say I have to sit down/lie down/stay in bed/or take these pills now, that probably means that I do have to do it right now - it can't be put off or forgotten just because I'm somewhere, or am right in the middle of doing something. Chronic pain does not forgive, nor does it wait for anyone.

If you want to suggest a cure to me, please don't. It's not because I don't appreciate the thought, and it's not because I don't want to get well. Lord knows that isn't true. In all likelihood, if you've heard of it or tried it, so have I. In some cases, I have been made sicker, not better. This can involve side effects or allergic reactions. It also includes failure, which in and of itself can make me feel even lower. If there were something that cured, or even helped people with my form of chronic pain, then we'd know about it. There is worldwide networking (both on and off the Internet) between people with chronic pain. If something worked, we would KNOW. It's definitely not for lack of trying. If, after reading this, you still feel the need to suggest a cure, then so be it. I may take what you said and discuss it with my doctor.

If I seem touchy, it's probably because I am. It's not how I try to be. As a matter of fact, I try very hard to be normal. I hope you will try to understand. I have been, and am still, going through a lot. Chronic pain is hard for you to understand unless you have had it. It wreaks havoc on the body and the mind. It is exhausting and exasperating. Almost all the time, I know that I am doing my best to cope with this, and live my life to the best of my ability. I ask you to bear with me, and accept me as I am. I know that you cannot literally understand my situation unless you have been in my shoes, but as much as is possible, I am asking you to try to be understanding in general.

In many ways I depend on you - people who are not sick. I need you to visit me when I am too sick to go out... Sometimes I need you help me with the shopping, cooking or cleaning. I may need you to take me to the doctor, or to the store. You are my link to the normalcy of life. You can help me to keep in touch with the parts of life that I miss and fully intend to undertake again, just as soon as I am able.

I know that I have asked a lot from you, and I do thank you for listening. It really does mean a lot.


turkey chili recipe

so today i had the day from hell i seriously thought bout just getting in my car and driving away, since i really have no place to go (i know i have alot of friends online of which many had offered me comfort and a safe place i couldn't make myself do it, my family does not deserve the worry of me dissapearing so thats out besides i have a quarter of a tank of gas and i can guarentee you in my thunderbird would get me to um maybe puyallup soooooooooooo notmuch of running away now is it now. since i have had time to reflect i have decided to just give it all to god and let him deal with it . after praying about it i think the solution is to list to sell on ebay and make some people some awesome deals some that they can NOT refuse sound like a plan? does to me hehe so for all those who had to listen to me today whine and complain and act like a moron i am very sorry forgive me please then on the other hand hubby came home and when he opened the door i could see how much he was going to enjoy the chili i made today was very easy to make and he really did enjoy it so i have decided to post the recipe

home made turkey chili

i browned in a frying pan with no oil or shortening i cut up half a yellow onion, 5 bulbs of garlic 2 large green peppers and i fried the ground turkey up into it i put a lid on it to hasten the cooking time and actually browning it
while that id beings browned empty 6 15 oz cans of various beans, i used pinto,black,red and kidney beans, add 2 cans of cut up tomatoes stewed are fine or whatever you have tomato wise on hand, add 3 large cans tomatoe sauce. in a pinch you can use canned spagettie sauce. add 3 packages of chili seasoning and if you like it hot like my hubby does then add several shakes of cayenne pepper keeping in miond that it will get hotter the more you simmer(spicery) add the meat mixture and mix well add simmer at least 2 hours . enjoy but remember to check the spice before adding extra cayenne. if for some reason it is to spicy you can add more sauce and also about a half cup of sugar, it will cut the spice down to a managable level. enjoy it bon apetit

life sucks

warning this is a ver negative blog post if you don;t want to read it don't sorry am having my own personal pity party here

ok heres the scoop, pay day is sept 30th i have no money till then what the hell am i going to do i mean seriously what can i do, i have tried selling a bunch of patterns seems everyone has what they want so even at half price its not selling so what do i do next ebay i guess or etsy who the hell knows i am so damn tired of being broke i want to scream i have people who owe me money but of course no one has it now when i need it. i should have learned my own lessons after my cousin robin ripped me off for almost 700.00 but nope not me i am stupid i lent money or gave stuff and said people could pay me later well guess what nothing is worse than lending family and friend money if you are not prepared to lose it dont lend it i have learned that the hard way. sucks i know so many others are worse off but i would like my fair share can anyone say stupid idiot thats me there i said it im a idiotic stupid moron who will never learn life sucks

Sunday, September 14, 2008

things are better

things are better now she called me last week and apologized told me she was sorry for being such a bitch and that she hoped i would forgive her. which of course i did then things are so tense everywhere i hate it i hope that things are going to work out for the best all around god bless everyone

Thursday, September 11, 2008

i want to thank all of you

want to say thank you to all who have helped me thru this trying time. right now we are not speaking and it is good cause i am still so hurt by her acting the way she is the support i have received is amazing you guys are the very best friends a girl could have. god bless all of you i don't know what i would do without you all thank you is not enough but is all i have i love you all

Monday, September 8, 2008

im broken hearted

well as i had posted previously about my sister nance she has some major issues and today i am trying to understand why she attacked me verbaly, when i called her i thought oh good i finally got her, well i was very sorry i bothered to call her first we talked about abbers and her first day of school and how she had left her backpack and lunch box at school and her sweater on the bus, well abbers would do that she is a sweet little girl who don;t always think about her things(unless someone else is hurting them then she takes the toys away and says no thats mine you can;t hurt it like that and is done playing with the person. well after chatting a bit about abbers i asked her how the nerve block had done in her neck and she proceeds to tell me that it don;t work so i say that sucks and after that was all she wrote. she started in on me about the meds i take for my pain and how i needed to get off them and on to a morphine pump and how i am doing nothing but causing myself trouble i told her i didn;t want to be on the morphne pump having had that when i had my back surgery i was sick as a dog with the morphine basicly i was trying to tell her what she wanted for herself was great but don;t push it off on me, she sat there and told me i was taking the strongest of my meds i c an which she is very wrong there is stronger than mine so she says to me your lying i know there is no such thing i was so upset i told her needed her to just stop i didn't want to even discuss it with her and she needed to just leave me alone but she kept it up and finally i ended up hanging up after telling her to call me when she thinks about how she is treating me, then when i tried to explain how i felt to my husband he just said not to let it worry me she probably didn;t mean it

i thought he understood what my sister meant to me but guess not i feel soooo along and tonight i am just sad very sad , but i did have one bright thing happen that made me realllly happy, my friend keesha has been having a hard time with her littlen girl being sick and in the hospital well i made keesh a lapghan out of super soft yarn and thought she would enjoy it while sleeping in her recliner(you would be suprised how many of us don;t sleep in a bed anymore) and she got it today she said it made her day but it did alot more than that it made mine too knowing someone appreciates the time i took to make something special for them thanks keesh you so made me happy with your responce to your package i love ya kiddo hang in there. to all of you who have read this novel i thank you and am very happy to call ya all friends hugs and love to all

Friday, September 5, 2008

Thursday, June 26, 2008

prayers needed badly

i called my baby sister today as i had not heard from her recently and have been extremely worried about her, well she didn;t answer the phone but after about 10 min i got a call back but was not nance was my sister jeannete jeannie for short, she had abbers over at her house and said that nance was sleeping, i asked her with terror in my heart if everything was alright, i knew when she said it it wasn't. she recently had a mri thanks to her stupid ins company, according to them she is allowed 1 yes one mri a year, well her doc said no way that wasn't going to happen she needs treatment now not 7 months fro+m now he then told the ins co that if they didn't allow it he was going to recommend my sister to go to the er room where they would do a complete work up including mri ct scan and various other things , they quickly agreed morons, well today her own DOC not the nurse called and there is bad bad bad news. first thing he said she has blood in her skull but the good news was it was dried up, so hopefully whatever trauma that caused did not do more damage please god , then he dropped the bombshell, he said that some of her lymph nodes are suspicious, i don;t know what he means by them , but he did say he DIDN'T think they were benign , which brings me to the concluioun that maybe they are cancerous, lord i give it to you, thy will be done, i pray lord that nance is not suffering and that you will heal her of these horriblw things she has happening to her. lord give her strength , i ask this in your precious name in the name of the father the son and the holy spirit amen i love you nance sooooooooo much please be strong i'm here for you

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

something i just finished sad to say is to small for me :(

i made this shrug usding vanna whites new yarn was the purple tweed effect and i ran out so got the darker as a border , one weee little problem though im to fat. i look like shamoo the killer whale
so was showing my friend heather from the ville andf she said she loved itso i asked her if she wanted it and she said yes can't wait to get it so wooohoo has a homejustgot to pack it up and send to her tomorrow or whenever i get to the po back to the drawing board for me by the way was not my pattern i found it in the book 100 crochet projects. just wanted to share with ya all thanks for looking and reading my boring blog some day will have exciting news like i won the lotto or something yea right like THAT is going to happen

NOT!!!! hugs to ya all love ya bunches

Monday, June 16, 2008

why why why why why why why why why why why why

o.k remember how i posted a bit back about my nausea medicine. well now i have another problem, seems that now nurse ratchet is worried about my health from me taking a stupid antihistamine. he wrote 1 or 2 as needed 4 times a day i need 2 4 x's a day he only wrote for 1 4x's a day so am almost out and half way thru the meds. only problem is he told me right on the bottle take 1 OR 2 for nausea 4 times a day. i hate my life i want the world to stop so i can climb off and go hibernate for the next 100 years. maybe then it will be better heck if i know but in the mean time here i am stuck in the middle with all of you whining and crying to you to use the meds im so sorry i don;t mean to be like this i have only you guys to talk to who will understand i love you all please send me some ideas please i'm begging you please helps me find something that will work so i don;t have to listen to them moan and groan

oh on another note please include my son in your prayers or good thoughts, as of today he is unemployed and is hoping to pick another job up hopefully at that school. i love you all pleaea

Thursday, June 5, 2008

hey ya all sorry been so long have been pretty down lately and just didn;t feel like blogging much, still having that ear pain and am very dizzy when i stand up which means i lay down ALOT!!!!! but am hoping to get the house cleaned up then i get to have a new reclyner chair. hubby promised me that :D

not up to much same old same old, have talked to a few people, tonight got to talk to fran oh my gosh is she talented , she designed this wonderful shawl, wish i could show ya but that would be wrong without her permission so can brag about it lol
talked to my sister jacqui downin oz, have missed you alot darl, kathy my other sister i sure am trying to make thius project happen, i need to be able to get to the treadmill because once am done at physical therapy i will need to continue otherwise is kind of pointless hahahahahaha, ok i will stop boring you with my life history

the weather here has been so so cold and wet one day damp and wet on another day sunny and warm i give up summer hurry up and come back.

not much else to say here is a few pics of itsy in the jungle as we call it she likes to lay uin the iris beds and snooze and sometimes she curls up so small we can't even see she is in there and one of shadow the rest are some flowers in my back yard.i love rhodsys but they don't last thats the problem,would love a plant that lasted from early spring till late autumn. i know i know good luck right? anyways 9u

not much else to say working on a couple things for my secret pals and have a few things to get together and will be sending out a couple of packages towards the end of the week, oh wait is the end of the week, you who are about to recieve still won't have a clue cause im not telling when i am sending ]either cause then they woulsd gueas
wel ciaio for now at leasi]un

. ithis being a book now has mase

Sunday, May 25, 2008

hey ya all

well here i wanted to wish ya all a happy memorial day, instead i am sitting her sick to my tummy because my jackass doctor decided i didn't need the nausea meds to take with my pain meds. no thanks to him i am not in the hosptial. thankfully the pharmacist showed me some otc for me to take that seems to help some. i sooo can not believe he did that to me, said i took to many, yea jackass cause you frigging TOLD me o double up on them ya idiot. now i am worried about my pain meds, shit if he is being pissy about nausea meds what the frig is he going to do about pain meds if i come in 2 days early? shit i want to just find a new doctor but it wouldn't be so easy and he damn well knows it which is why i can't bitch him out the way i want to cause if i do he will say fine leave i know he already told me thats what he did to someone who was upset with him over this very same thing. but wtf does he not understand that without these meds or some similar to them i am suppose to do i guess he don't care that i get sick to my tummy when i take the pain meds. i made my appointment a couple days early as i had plans for the 2nd which is when i would have had to go insead made for the 30th which is friday i suppose he will bitch about that too although i have enough meds if i am careful, i made he visit a couple days early god forbid he could give me a few extra, he won't increase the strength even though my body is use to them and at this point is pretty much useless as they don; work sigh why are people such pricks. i have been crying all day because of this, tonight had company so had to pretend that nothing was wrong but dad saw thru it anyways and asked me then said he wishes he had not thrown moms away cause i could have had them. sigh

i am worried about him his legs are still swelling and doc wants him to stay off thenm but he won;t says if he can;' at least work in the yard why bother getting up in the morning. i kind of know how he feels i feel like i am just totally worthless as a human being. i depend on my stupid doctor who lets me down, i am a burden to my family even though they say no, i feel like i am sometimes i wish i could just go to sleep and not wake up again, but then thats being selfish and i don't want to be. i mean hell everyone wants me to live this wonderful life i have. don't mind me i am in a pissy mood right now am writing this more for myself than anything, just to let ya know i am fine and would not ever do anything stupid. cause i know my friends would kick my ass if i did. they would drag me back from beyond and torment me right sis i know you would

there i got it out of my system YEA RIGht, but won't talk about it anymore.

today worked in the kitchen the house is slowly coming back from before the collapse. almost everything is out now and now have to work on my stash which robin will be going thru this week and send you before you go to vegas alright? going to send one big box instead of 2 smaller ones less postage that way. tracy have yours already to send had to get the custom forms so now should be able to send out next week i forgot about customs and being a goober head forgot exactly what i had put in the box so had to bring it home and find out (blushing here) so hang in there hon it will soon be on its way. laura will hold yours till you say so but i am glad that you got the looms and the tote bag. hopefully you will like it hon

sis how did logan do after i talked to you, i know rich was going to mcdonalds

did logan eat again? growing boys hehe he is such a sweetie what a darling little boy. your very lucky to have him.

jacqui darl am so sorry have not written back i am a bad person, will try tomorrow or maybe a bit later tonight

fran how are you doing? i bet those babies are running you ragged.

anyways for anyone i didn't say don't mean im not thinking about you. just having my usual brain farts that keep my sanity away.

sending all my love and stupid pet tricks to all of you bewahahahahahahahahahahaha love me

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

can you say awwwwww

this is paints baby isn't he/she adorable, we are thinking of bringing it home for shadow not sure yet but am thinking about it.

life here has been very stressful as i know it is for everyone, some days i don;t even want to get off the love seat i hurt i bad. but i plug along each and every day.

been going to physical therapy but not sure how long am going to keep it far it has cost me 100.00 and i am barely moving, but the ultrasound they have been using is soooo wonderful on my back. debbie my pt is wonderful, she really has a gift and is kind and caring.

been crocheting as much as i can with my hand being messedup. i did a bit of sewing yesterday and finished the levi purse that i had sold to a guy at walmart who was collecting signatures for initatives. other that that same ole same ole.

weather was so hot over the weekend andnow is back in the 40's and damp. nothing is worse for me that what the weather is doing, hotter than a wildfire blazing in july.

then a colder than a day in decemeber lol well maybe not THAT cold, anyways was cool and then today RAIN ACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK so bad for my arthritis,

oh well life goes on.

my yard looks so nice, the lilacs and the rhodys are just beautiful. oh gosh they are pretty, we have 3 diff kinds of lilacs, red which is a bright purple, white and blue which is the paler lavender, odd i know but is how it is described. as for the rhodys we have a magnitude of colors we have white ones, red ones, dark purple, brighter purple and white mix,we also have bright bright pink and orange and orangeish red, my next door neighbor has a yellow one i want a yellow one whine whine. lol well my friends am off to try and sleep, not moving so good tonight after therapy so hope i can sleep. god blessyou all and know i love you all goodnight

Monday, May 12, 2008

will it ever end?

so today when i get the mail there is something there from that stupid vet hosptial i took riley too, they waited 2 almost 3 weeks since riley died.WHY? all it did was upset me i swear that they did it on on purpose. alotof my friends said maybe they meant well and maybe they did but i was not impressed. besides the one who treated him didn't even bother to sign it, nice huh? maybe i am wrong , maybe they didn't cause his death but since learning what i have about this place i will never forgive myself for taking him there ever, i truly feel he would be alive if i had taken him to someone who knows what they are doing. riley love mommie misses you, so does shadow

today when i went out to see shadow there was a black cat sitting inside the kennel on the top of it just out of reach for shadow. looked identical to riley and very well may have been his sibling, several days before he died i noticed these cats coming and hanging around the yard, then after riley boy died they stopped until last week when i spotted it coming out of the patio. is so odd and now back today is bothering me big time now. then again i may have been wrong and it was itsy although whn i looked i twice at it it looked alot like riley.but obviously wasn't him

did ya all have a nice mothers day/ mine was alright i suppose, nothing i would write home about. see this is the first mothers day we have bnt had hubbys mom with us, we always suprised her with some kind of we bought 2 geraniums and put thmon the deck dad had had built for her. before we got there though am getting ahead of myself, as we were leaving i went out the door onto the porch and took a flying nosedive. so now am hurting 4 x's as bad. got to get myself a new pair of shoes or at least learn to pick up my feet, the problem is my legs and feet they have no feeling in them or very little, my legs feel like wooden blocks and feet sometimes have tingles most time just bla nada. anyways enough about my pitiful life

heard from severelof my friends. kari, christine, jean, laura and tonight i got to talk to fran i was so happy as i have not been able to talk to fran to much and she is a sweetheart i have missed her.

want to crochet but kind of hard to right now hope hands heal up fast.

what ya all been up to? having some good times in this nicer weather we are suppose to have. although i feel so bad for the people of the south east with all the tornados and storms it worries me alot. please be safe my friends and those who i love and care about,. you are always in my thoughts

oh did have a awesome dinner for mothers day. we wanted to have dad come over but he wasn't ready to had a hard day too cause of mom so we visited there for a while. when we got home lj had the grill all ready to cook on, then he and hubby made me tenderloin steak, OMG was that the best steaki have had in years was so tender you could cut it with a fork,, gave a few of the scraps for sir shadow and itsy baby and coast,only one who ate them and wanted more were baby and sir shadow. tonight finished them off, made some bbq beans to go with them andhubby and son snarfed, which was fine with me i weasn't all that hungry]so was the perfect amount. was a fewscraps so shadow got them since baby wasnt hungry but was soooo good, the nicest part too was the price i got them almost for a steal. 4.99 a pound for10 pounds or more

doing the summer secret pal swaps at both the ville and the mania, going to send out to my pal on the mania this week at least am hoping to hope ya all have a great week, today had therapy and my pt was upset that i fell said i did alot of damage more than what i had when i first came in so she worked on me today, her name is debbie and let me tell you,she is freaking awesome. today she put my hips back in place ouchy but tonight they are better. sigh whoever said no pain no gain and that really upsets me so i ignore thrm.

talked to my friend tammie she lives in australia and has been through a lot and lost my addy now she has it again wooohooo hope to heard from her again love ya tammie
well am off to bed i think , naw i think i will read first for a while, reading my new nora roberts book the hollow and omgosh is it good so far is the 2nd one of three and cn;t wait to finish it and get the last one thats how great is so try it you can't beat it lol goodnight my friends

kk am headed hdos

Thursday, May 8, 2008

its been a week

a whole long weak filled with sadness and sorrow a long pain filled day for losing you riley. i can;t believe you have been gone a week, tonight at the exact time you died i was sitting in the garage holding shadow and he started whining , he knew you were gone then, he has been so sad without you little one. mommie is worried about him, he isn;'t eatting his food like he always did you know how much he loves food riley, send him some angel love little one and let him know you are still around, i love you riley boy, i miss you soooooooooo much, mommie will never ever forget you. all the time i call your name everyone is getting mad because i will say going to put the boys to bed or i will say your name and i know they are upset cause they will say mom please. i can;t help it darling boy, thats how much i miss you, enjoy your life now filled with happiness and fun chasing birds around and visiting with nana

today was so odd i was out with shadow visitin him and all of a sudden he took off like he use to when you and he was playing . i hope it was you sweetie cause shadow misses you so much.

tonight someone tried to get into my car again, damn fools nothing in there but car, don;t leave anything in there so why would they even try morons.

i don;t know if i am coming or going, one bad thing after another happens and im getting so i can't take anymore, i wish i could say calgon take me away but the sad thing about that is i can hardly even stand up let alone take a bath those who think life is so easy and dont have physical limitations isay more power to ya i wish you could understand buti guess unless you have it you don't i hate to think what would happen to you if you did have physical limits would you be the same ?i doubt it , and i hope you never have to feel what i do.

k enough depressing things, i am at this time designing a baby sweater and hat pattern is my own so there lol
once i perfect it will have it for sale one day . who knows, someone might buy it lol

please pray for my friend nikis and her family they are going thru
some really hard times, they recently lost someone they were really close to . so
please keep them in your thoughts and prayers

yesterday had therapy. walked a whole 1/4 mile. omgosh was i hurting last night , will try for a bit more next week.

got to get this mess out of here and back into the garage so i can stop going to therapy and do my own, i mean all im doing is exercising with heat pack and back rub, can do that here. and it won't cost me as much, got a tread mill just need to use it

on a happppy note i lost 5 pounds woooootttt
how cool is that. am so tired yet can;t sleep for the pain, its getting to me even now. what will i do well i will tell ya will sit up and write really boring blogger posts for you all to read :P

tomorrow sending my friend fran some rosemary starts i hope they work for ya sweetie if not will get them rooted myself, well guess am going to get off here and try and sleep. am sooooo tired
hugs and love to you all may your day be better than it was today

Friday, May 2, 2008

we lost riley tonight

my beloved riley is no longer on this earth and is in fact in heaven with his grandma who loves him so much s well all the rest of his grandmas and grandpas and everyone.

this is a dedication to you riley

i remember so well the day you came to live with us, i was not well and daddy was outside chopping wood and said you were a new furbaby to come see how much you looked like itsy. i came outside to see you and there you were sitting there meowing your special little meow you had, think mt lion roar, this was rileys roar.

we tried to dissuade you from coming to live with us. took you out front, you snuck around the back and came in that way,every time we put you in front you snuck back in so we decided any kitty who wanted to live here that bad, then you could stay, when you first came to live with us you got along with everyone, but gradually you chose to tangle with baby and since we couldn't let that happen we seperated you with shadow. you became one of shadows best buddies, he is totally lost without you little one, this big ball of fluff loves you so much he is crying i wiped tearsfrom his eyes tonight he misses you so much

we let ya run with shadow in the yard but watched over you. which is why i can not figure out what happened to you. daddy and i and brother and sister all wanted them to find out why but it cost almost 600.00 600.00 is way out of line for us we don't have that kind of money. i did what i could for you sweetie i took you to the doctor this morning and she said you would be alright, goes and gives you medicine which she said would help you.but you just got sicker this evening and there was nothing more that i could do for you i held you with tears running down my face with love for you as you left this earth and became a kitty angel. now little one you are up there running around playing with the other kittys and are not hurting or sick anymore,

riley what is mommy going to do without you ,i have cried so much my head hurts and my whole body is in pain. riley mommy loves you and i know you can hear me sweetie. i miss you sooo much, this morning when i came to bring ya outside from the garage,i looked for you and your sweet little face, and all i can do now is cry, but what is worse is shadow is lost without you. he won't even eat, keeps smelling the area where you were last night before i took you to th garage to be more comfortable.

i can only thank god that i went out to check you and was at least able to hold you when you left this wicked bad world.if someone did something to you then they will pay riley i swear on my mothers grave that i will hunt them down and hurt them , but i don;t know where to look, maybe you can guide mommy, riley boy i love you with all of my heart and miss you so much, how much more can we take your family is grieving for you. lon is beside himself and so is sis. we will never know riley why you had to die , it will be a mystery for ever but know little one you will never be forgotten ever. i love you riley rest in peace my darling baby boy

please be with grandma she is wait

ing to hold you and pet you once again.

riley i am so sorry i couldn;t do more to help you i tried my best sweetheart i love you riley be happy and free little one
thank you for the little time we were together, and i hope you know how much we all love you. your human brother and sister is devistated and we are all heartbroken. is a nightmare riley that is going on forever. i love and miss you and wish you were here. your loving mommy

Monday, April 21, 2008

sometimes i wonder

ya ever have one of those days when nothing seems to go right? ever since the garage rafters fell down on the car last wendsday,seemed nothing would ever go right and just kept getting worse well today we finally go a break, the genius engineer hubby i have figured out a way to get the rafters off the car,6 hours later of pulling with a rope and nailing a 2x4 repeating this process for hours, ya know the old block and tackle worked for the eygyptians i guess he figured he could make it work for the garage and it did:)but omg am i sore, i can not imagine how much my hubby and son hurt. all i know was i almost didn't make it with my back and luckily the running board on the car was available.that was the good news, the bad news was it showed just how big my big fat butt is.i quickly wiped that area clean bewahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

the damage to the house is more extensive than we first thought and the car is well im heartbroken BUT with enough money(got to sell my stamps or yarn stash or something)i think can maybe,. just maybe be made almost as good as new. the worst damage is to the roof, several large dents are in it not to mention that one is right on a seam, i know you are thinking seam???? but older cars had seams usually around the roof line and the hood here is a seam on this car anyways and whats bad about the roof is a big dent right by where the door opens, flat places are much easier to fix than when ya have a dent on a curve. sigh anyways whats done is done and not all i can do about it but wait for ins adjsuster to contact me which she still has not called even though i reported it last week . guess its not as important to them, they want to get their money fast enough darn people anyway well what will be will be. and no its not a stupid doris day movie, well think im going to try and sleep am hurting so bad and need to try and let my meds work i guess. so until tomorrow be kind to each other, ya never know when your garage rafters are going to fall

Friday, April 18, 2008

bad news

looks like more than what we thought is damaged, please think good thoughts and prayers everything is covered, i am heartsick, just want to throw in the towel for good.someone please tell fate to be kind to me:P hugs and love vicki

life is a bitch sometimes

ya know how sometimes ya feel like just throwing in the towel, like giving all your crap away and ride off into the sunset? thats about how i feel right now. we have had one bad thing after another happen to us and i can't take any more. 2 days ago hubby and i were sitting down to dinner, talking , laughing , enjoying a rare moment when we are not fighting. when we heard this god awful roar and then crash, my first thought was oh no please god not the car. we have a old car we are restoring and was almost done with it. getting it ready to sell so maybe could pay bills off and then retire if i could find any decent medical that would pay for my medicine. well all hell broke loose cause you got it was the car, not only the car was what happened to the car which killed me. the whole damn rafters fell on top of the car . we keep our christmas stuff up there ect. alot of smaller things and this has been this way for over 25 years. well called the ins company , bad news car is NOT insured , and you know why its not? cause i am to stupid to think they might not cover it since is up on jackstands and is not operable, but that don;'t matter no sir , uh uh , but it would have been if i had put comprension on it for 30 frigging dollars for 6 months, i am heart sick i feel like i have had my heart ripped out and stomped all over it.
how do i tell my husband who loved that car for all he is worth that it would have been fixed for 30 f**king dollars.. how please tell me how i do that. he at first went physco and blamed me for all the crap up there , but then realized what he was doing and apologized. i am sick, just sick, he said will cost around 10K to fix damage to the roof the hood and god knows what else. all told though it stood up pretty damn good, shows ya that cars in america USE to be made of strong steel, not the shit they have now. now waiting on the adjuster to call to tell me if the structure is covered. is going to cost plenty to fix this too, going to have to rip out sheet rock. buy lumbar, hell i might as well walk away for all the crap we have to do. i am so sick to my stomach i want to throw up. im leaving it up to god, life right now is more than i can bear.

therapy is kicking my butt and only making things worse so will have to wait and see only been once so will see. sig my pt is awesome but she will have to let me go at my own pace and she said she will of course. that my friend is a good therapist. doing the stretches she wants me to do kill me and i hurt so bad afterwards but she said i need to do them to losen up my back and butt. is there ever a end to bad luck? can i ever look forward to having one little single day of happiness without pain and suffering and stress, is that to much to ask of anyone, why does this keep happening, why is life so unkind. what did i do to deserve this, i must be a bad person is all i can think of. someone somewhere has my name on a bullseye and is throwing poison darts at me. i guess maybe if i sell most of my possesions i can raise enough money to pay to have the car fixed. hubby said probably 10K worth of damage . i figure if i sell my stamp collection daddy gave me maybe will raise half that maybe will see thanks for listening to me rant away i am so out of it am not sure if i am even of i will make it to the next day let alone hour. got to stop it just has to thanks for bein here for me, without ya all not sure if i could go on. love ya all

Sunday, April 13, 2008

hey ya all

been a while i know sorry, things have not been all that great it i guess i figured was better to say nothing than bitch all the time about how i feel, right now am feeling like a total failure , yesterday(the 11th actually) was my daughters birthday and i so let her down, i couldn't even bake the cake i have made for her every single year since she was 1 year old. i know she said it was alright but dammit it is NOT alright,totally frigging sucks why does this pain have to kick me in the ass so bad

went to the doc early last week as i couldnt stand the horrible pain and was asking for some help. meaning i needed something more for pain, well what i got was not the thing was asking for at all what i got was more physical therapy. mind you it has its place but i also remember the disticnt feeling of PAIN!!! although the gal who worked on me in the past told me if its hurting you so you are feeling worse is moving to fast and time to slow it down, a far cry from the clinic where i had gone before this one where the therapists attitude was no pain, no gain. something which she had the balls to say to me, omg that pissed me off.i walked out and never went back was a bunch of bs. my doctor said he is wondering if i don't have fibromyalgia . i sure have the symptoms of it one thing which is bothering me is alot of tightness around my face. first i thought was related to sinus but the doc don't think so, and now i am wondering myself, have beem taking sinus meds and isn;t making any diff so am wondering. sigh guess this is turning into a pity whine. never mind it and tell me how you all are.

on a positive note my friend melissa who is another member of who was my secretpal has agreed to make me a web page so i can sell my stuff online. am also working on writing up my patterns for sale. got to dosomething and i would rather make something out of my creations and put them to good work. well am off since i have to sleep if i can. no even now i hurt ,am damn sick of it snd i just want it tired of it and life treating me this way,all in all though could be worse bye for now and thanks for reading this novel please keep being my friend i love you all

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

tuesdays follies

well today was one of those days, one of those ick days, i worked so hard in my house and no one appreicated it at all in fact was asked what i did all day. GIMME a BREAK i could not believe how my husband acted. since his mother died he has been so different. i mean i have been with him for over 36 years and he just is not the man i met and fell in love with, granted 35 years is not when ya all act like first love, but there is so much tension and stress in my house is breaking my heart and our marriage there any hope that he will get better. i feel he is depressed but all he does is deny it and say he is fine

guess i can't make him change but sure is sad that things have reached the point i am thinking of leaving

so besides working today i had to break up a fight between shadow and riley, riley started one and shadow started one. darn cats

thursday riley is going to go to the vets for a little life changing operation. yup he is getting snipped. he won't like it one bit, but i found out the vet has a post op pain shot he can have so he is going to get that even though it cost 17.00

i am so glad they have this for animals now, when baby had her surgery they didn't give anything and she was crying from the pain. but now thank god they realie animals have feelings too and pain is just as bad for them as humans but they don;t understand what is going on.

when he comes home thursday night will keep him seperated from shadow. he won't feel like tussling im sure.

the worst part for him is no food or water after 7 pm tomorrow night
eeeek. but is the way it has to be

today got the cutest ecard from lori carlson aka the shrone. boy lori was i trying to get those spiders and couldn't for the life of me make that hammer move to hit those spiders. got me good you lol was cute thanks so much

got a square yesterday for a friend who has had a tragedy in her life, and alot more coming. boy let me tell you any of you who is helping me make this for our friend , well lets just say you guys are the BEST

i joined a couple more yahoo groups one is A girl can never have to many handbags all running together lol is a fun place to visit and also joined another one with some friends. will post the addy later after asking if its alright.

i met a new friend in pet smart yesterday. it came about quite odd, we were both getting friskie canned cat food for our furkids, i had asked her to move cause she was blocking the chicken and tuna, she moved of course(i asked nicely of course) and when she saw what i had picked out and said i can't have anything with fish in my house it bothers my daughter. i said oh do you live with her
and she said no she lived in her own home but her 43 year old daughter lived with her in HER home. to say i was shocked was a gnat on a bears butt. and of course being the sweet sensitive kind of person i looked at her and said ARE YOU KIDDING ME? i was so shocked at this woman literly telling her mother what she could or could not do, we talked a bit more and she was so sad and almost crying so i asked her if it was alright if i gave her a hug. this womans daughter needs to grow up . and i hope my friend jan gets enough nerve to tell her its her house, needless to say i now have a new friend and maybe even after we talk a bit more we can go out to lunch at ivars which is fish and chips or even skippers lol

where does one draw the my house my kids live here but is not their home forever but while they are here i request and demand respect and for them to follow some very basic guidelines. and while occasionally we have a spat or 2 do to the fact my dd is a adult and has her own mind and don;t like me telling her what to do, she lives here so therefor she follows the rules(mostof the time, those times she don;t she hears about it from me)

and since they are both working i require them to help with grocerys and bills i do not charge rent but i do ask for a bit of help and it seems to be working.

am working on a bunch of things right now and am making my sp something special i hope she likes it got a couple more things to do also for her and then will send the reveal package i hope she dont know who i am yet :D

weather is odd but typical spring cold damp and the occasionaly stray snow flake or hail stone. and of course ever present sunshine

my magnolia tree is getting ready to bloom and what amazes me is the fact that a small piece of it had broken off so i stuck it in the pot of my old marigolds. amazing enough it is going to bloomfrom that stick in the pot. wow wouldn'tthat be cool thatit grew from a small stick to a new tree? same with the camelia bush way cool

well am off to snooze land as i have to be up early tomorrow in the wee hours of around 6:30 to 7:00 am to take fil to the doc for another stupid test. gosh i feel bad for him he is now battling all this sickness and things and all the time mom was alive he took care of her and was not sick at all please keep him in your thoughts and prayers . well am off to snoozeeeeeeeeeeee land till tomorrow ciao

Thursday, March 27, 2008

hey ya all

thought i would pop in and say howdy. things have been crazy. alot of running around like crazy. things have gone from bad to worse and seem to go on that wayi seriously need to make some money while cleaning my craft stuff out and willgive ya a awesome deal on stuff

today it snowed , again, does not mother nature know its SPRING? we had about 2 inches last night and they said tonight we could get anywhere from 1 to 3 in more in higher areas

is so pretty though gosh i love looking at the trees in spring bloom covered with show flakes wow is a crazy sight

my friend frans dad died yesterday . if you belong or did belong to the ville then you know who she is please think of her and her family in this sad time for them.

not much else to say, thought i should post though since i really other than my uncle have not posted in a while i know im bad bad bad shame on me and all that jazz gimme a break self loljust finished a beautiful full size black shawl with fringe for my friend nancy, she will love it when she sees it. hopefully that is.

my nephew nick cut his finger really bad
needed 14 stitches and now is off work, not sure if he had any tendons or muscles cut but was a bad one, love ya nick, be good and listen to your mom now

been busy making barbie clothes and looking off intospace and falling asleep so am off as ofright now lol so ciao amd will see ya when i see ya hugs and love vicki

house of the rising sun a dedication

my uncle larry passed away yesterday i dedicate this posting to you uncle. this was his favorite song, he would sit and strum his guitar and sing this song over and over and over, he taught me how to play it on my guitar back when i could still play and we often would sit and strum and sing this song. uncle larry suffered from
bipolar disease and also was a manic depressant, he is now at peace with our lord jesus christ who he recently accepted into his heart. for many years we didn't see each other because of a situation that happened when i was a teenager and he was not on his medicine. when mom died in 06 we sat for a bit and talked. i told him i didn;t hold him accountable for what happened anymore and had forgiven him he was glad it shows you should not hold a grudge with people, when you do sometimes you don't get to say goodbye and then you have no place to go. thanks for letting me reach out to him even in death he cared about others. god bless you uncle larry, here is to lippy the hippy as was his nickname

There is a house in New Orleans
They call the Rising Sun
And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy
And God I know I'm one

My mother was a tailor
She sewed my new bluejeans
My father was a gamblin' man
Down in New Orleans

Now the only thing a gambler needs
Is a suitcase and trunk
And the only time he's satisfied
Is when he's on a drunk

------ organ solo ------

Oh mother tell your children
Not to do what I have done
Spend your lives in sin and misery
In the House of the Rising Sun

Well, I got one foot on the platform
The other foot on the train
I'm goin' back to New Orleans
To wear that ball and chain

Well, there is a house in New Orleans
They call the Rising Sun
And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy
And God I know I'm one

now your with jesus uncle larry, god bless and keep you love your niece

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

what a bargain this is, yarn for sale

my sister kathy needs to make a bit of money and since she has more yarn than she needs she is selling at a deep discount this is what she has for sale. you are interested contact me here and i will give you her contact information she accepts paypal and money orders only thanks so much

Unique Yarns for Sale
Lot 1 $35.50 + $12 S/H
Elsbeth Lavold Silky Wool from Spring 05 Collection
Soft, silky feel 65% Wool 35% Silk You can see this at
Color 01 Natural 5 skeins
Color 03 Gray 5 skeins
Color 09 Jade 3 skeins
Lot 2 $22 + actual s/h
Berroco Softwist Bulky 41% Wool 59% Rayon
Soft, shimmery Bulky weight yarn
Mushroom 2 skeins
Pitch Black 1 skein
Lot 3 $5 each or whole lot for $100 + actual s/h
Plymouth Boku 95% Wool 5% Silk
If you like Noro you will LOVE Boku, it is similar in color and shading, felts beautifully
Color 1 Lot 1 6 skeins
Color 2 Lot 2 1 skein
Color 3 Lot 3 1 skein
Color 4 Lot 4 7 skeins
Color 5 Lot 5 2 skeins
Color 5 Lot 23 1 skein
Color 6 Lot 12A 6 skeins

Saturday, March 15, 2008

my week sigh

well today is saturday and while the last of the week was not so great i made do, got very little done and no one gives a rip around here but i decided to heck with them if they don't understand about why i don't feel up to doing anything well they can stuff it, even shadow knows when i don't feel good, and will sit there and give me kisses. sometimes i want to make my family live in my body for even a day but realisticly i would l think they need at least a month to see all the diff ways i have to live and how i feel. but sigh so not going to happen oh well i just ignore them for the most part. sadly tuesday did NOT get any cookies baked cause could nothing went right and worst of all i can NOT find my oatmeal recipe, if i gave it to any of you please pm me or email and share back heartsick over not being able to find it, my son baked christmas cookies and got into my recipe boxes and for some reason this is one of the ones mia. sigh crying here i love this cookie recipe. so am hoping i shared it with someone and you can share back would be a awesome day if i do get it back.

now for good news for a change today in the mail i got the most awesome package from my secret pal over at the crochetville. inside was the most beautiful tea cup infusser, and 3 tins of adiago tea,. for those of you who don't know about adiago tea, well sit back and let me tell you all about it, this tea is one of the best there is, i got valentines and also ear grey and also blue berry. and if that was not enough she also sent me a bamboo size f hook and not one not two but three skeins of sock yarn, already got started on a pair of socks, is multicolored, hope they turn out i suck at socks but found a good pattern and know i can do it lol so to you my secret pal, the one person who sooo made my day a good day i thank you, life right now is sweet!!! now am off to put the boys to bed,. shadow and riley sleep in our gargage and when its cold i put them in early like tonight is so darn cold , is killer on my body but they need some love and care and they depend on mommy(thats me lol) and i have to go now and take care of them might post later but for now a great big thank you to my secret pal hugs and love to ya all

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

tuesdays musings

well not much to say today have a vicous head ache and feel like crap but decided am going to get my butt in gear and make some oatmeal raisin cookies. they are so yummy and soft i am hungry for them and besides they are super good, today suppose to have a nasty storm so only am going to just go and do what i have to and then come home and bake and if i can get enough energy together. part i know is my meds. they make me sleepy and i am tired all the time. doc thinks might be fibromyalgia wouldn't doubt it since i have all of the sypmtoms. gak just what i need more sickness and illness, hubby will go out of his mind i wish things would change for so many of my friends they are all in the same situation and having fibro sucks.

spring is almost here and im more than ready for it actually.i hate this crappy weather.i want some sunshine and warm weather kkam off to bake cookies, i think lol take care and hugs and love for ya all ciao

Monday, March 10, 2008

these are a couple shawls i made. this first one is not really this color is the lighting, its actually more of a raspberry i hope you all enjoy looking as much as i enjoyed making them, i am called the shawl queen on some places lol

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