its june what can i say SUMMERTIME WOOOHOOOO

hey ya all thought i would pop in and say hello, i finally have internet access in the house we are living in now is sooo wierd having 2 homes and is killing me paying bills on 2 places not sure what we are going to do i know it can't go on indefinetly, am hoping one of the kids move in here although i really dont mind during the summer as i am very much enjoying the air conditioning in this house


i have been busy crocheting things i recently made a baby blanket and a pair of booties for a friend of my sons actually a fellow teacher who has had a hard time carrying a pregnancy to term, she had 4 miscarriages and this one is cooking in the over good lol which means its a good thing as the baby us fine and healthy and hopefully in a couple months she will deliver a healthy baby girl here is a pic of the blanket.i know it looks like a giant granny sq but it isn't it has bobbles in the pattern all across the 4 sides she loved it and i hope you enjoy it also

the weather has been so nice here, no rain for almost 3 weeks so got to get out there and water more want a green lawn not brown sigh

speaking of yarn i scored so good at goodwill today i could not resist, got almost 50 skeins of yarn for 12.00 how cool was that. this lady looks at me and says did you take ALL the yarn i said yes i did. for those prices how can i turn it down going to resell in my etsy shop or share with some of my friends

its almost all worsted weight there was a couple skeins of 100 % wool but i sent those to keesha as she can use it also now i take turns between kathy and keesha speaking of both your packages are on the way girls wooohooo can;t wait for ya both to get them

tomorrow we will be working in the attic trying to get everything out of there so we can go through the stuff and decide what to keep what to sell and what to get rid of by giving away. THEN once we get the house done we will be going to the storage unit mom rented over 20 years ago when i think of the money they spent on this place it kills me 120.00 a month times 12 months times 20 years thats 1440.00 X 20 the mind boggles me thats $28,800.00 enough to build a triple car garage and for what all stuff that will most likely be sold ot given away sigh






last weekend we planted lilies and dahlias along the fence line the next door neighbor wanted to know what we were planting i said lilies and dahlias you should have seen his face i said no worries the lilies are only 2 feet high he frecently planted some blue berry bushes and huckleberry bushes and was worried about the sun being blocked. he don;t have to worry about anything lol i want to get busy on my quilts soon too need to find time to make them i am making one for a special friend who has undergone a huge amount of problems and she needs a pick me up i have been so blessed having so many good people i can call friends while i can;t say i know everything about them i do know the ones i care about would do anything for me as i would for them life is good you know it when you have someone telling you how much they love and care about you like i said am very blessed love you all take care and be blessed by your own wonderful friends. it takes a friend to know a friend and you all are mine and i am so thankful for you love ya catch ya later hugs and love vicki

hey ya all, stopping by to say hello, and to brag about my score today hehehehe, sooooo first i went to goodwill at one place nada nothing good at all, so then hit the freeway and went to another one, no yarn but they did have 7 cool afghan leafets, oh before i get ahead of myself i also went to joes which is a sporting goods/auto store here going out of business and scored for my dh a awesome pair of 3 ton jackstands these go for almost 60.00 i paid 6.00 SCORE!!!!!!!

anyways then went out to the other goodwill and they had the afghan leaflets got them for a buck nice huh and inside of it was one for the american and national league football teams crocheted pattern for afghans SCORE!!!!!!!!

so then stopped at michaels as i wanted to see if they had their new yarn nope but they DID have some awesome clearance sales. so i got 6 skeins of patons 100% merino wool yarnfor 1.99(those are already spoken for)

11 skeins of sugar and cream self stiping cotton yarn in the shades of pink for 79 cents a skein SCORE!!!!

also got 2 skeins of red heart softie yarn and a skein of red heart sport yarn 99 cents SCORE!!!!!!

also i got 3 skeins of red heart the big skeins of worsted weight acrylic yarn i need for a project 99 cents each grand total 30.oo SCORE the merino wool alone goes for 6.00 to 7.00 a skein and its the prettiest yarn but as i said already spoken for.

not up to much tonight getting ready to head back over to dads house for the night am tired and hungry and want to get something to eat soon.

am working on some sq for a dear friends sil she has been diagnosed with a nasty disease and she is making her a comfortghan so i am helping.

hope you all are doing well and i miss all of you who use to come and make comments is there a reason why you don't? if so please let me know , you all have my email or can post it here i won't post it if you don't want. i am sorry if i upset anyone and hope this is not the case and just that you all are busy with life as i am

we are doing as good as can be expected. still waiting for the attorney to contact us about the probate tomorrow will be one week so hope to hear soon.

hope you all have a wonderful week and will post again before the weekend(i promise to try) am doing some raok on ravelry found some friends who need a few things and they live outside the us so am doing my best to send them things they can enjoy and i can afford, also for my dear friend jacqui darl i am packing your package up and will send it asap still adding to it hehehe take care all and hope you enjoy this weather if its nice where you are , if not i am sending you some happy sunshine memories from me hehe hugs and love for all vicki

its the weekend wooooot

hi everyone its the weekend woohooo, things are moving along but is a slow process, saw and hired a attorney yesterday to deal with probate. just not getting any help from anyone who could and should but just would not give us the names of the forms we needed to do it ourselves so now we are out 2000.00 sucks but thats life i guess sigh

it looks like its going to be a beautiful weekend, i can;t wait to get outside and play in the dirt although can't do much of it with my back but will be fun hehe.

watching the news tonight is heart breaking, general motors is shutting down over 2000 dealerships i just don't understand how they think this is going to help them, if the higher up employees like the ceo actually did give a rats behind about their employees and the american people THEY would not take their bonuses or salary increase. its just frustrating how bad this economy is, i am very dissapointed in the new administration and the promises they made. like we are suppose have seen a increase in our paycheck? we lost 600.00 and why? who the heck knows, i can guarentee that is not because we are rich by any way shape or form we get a discount on our property taxes because of my disability and our income yet they took 600 more out. thanks president obama now i have more debts than money that reallllly helps me out alot. now i must find a way to stretch the money even farther sigh


oh and another rant i am soooo pissed off i sent my friend a over night package as she was having surgery today which by the way anyone who knows who i am talking about she came through with flying colors anyways back to the rant

i overnighted her a package as i wanted her to have it before she went in today the idiots who were suppose to deliver it didn;t even knock on the door and they were home just left the note on the door OMGOSH was so angry luckily her dh was able to track her down(the mail carrier) he filed a complaint there and im going to file one here too. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr


son just called and is buying some more plants wooohooo so excited.

i feel so bad for him he is going to lose his job in june because the school district where he works does not want to pay out of their reserves . he has a very very slim chance of getting something but odds are very slim please keep him in your thoughts and prayers.

i can't believe the weather now is just beautiful can't wait for summer to come. well hubby wants to go so got to run take care my friends and talk to ya soon hugs and love vicki

may is ehlersdanlos awarness month

this is a subject very dear to me as one of my best friends has this disease and it has recked havoc on her body she is a young woman still and while i am not going to name her she knows who i am talking about.


please educate yourself about this disease. it can be herditary and passed on to your future children

until i met my friend i had no idea this horrible disease excisted. am glad its being made aware , so am doing my part to tell ya all any questions email me or post on the blog will try and explain it to you hang in all who suffers from it hugs to my special friend you know i love you girlie hugs and love vicki


http://www.ehlersdanlosnetwork.org/EDS_May_Awareness_Month.html

hey ya

hi guys just wanted to update a bit things are still really crazy here still working on getting things done from when dad died and i can tell you its not fun this stupid government wants nothing but money money money and they have it set up so no lay person can do it only a attorney. we tried to file probate ourselves NO ONE wouold even tell us if it was the right form so this week we are meeting with a attorney and going to cost us almost 2,000.00 for it sucks in my opinion anyways thats the heres and theres for been doing a small amount of crocheting but am so darn tired i don;t even feel up to that tried to knit socks OMG was that hilarious NOt will try it again when i have more energy hugs to you all vicki

thank you everyone

i want to take a moment to thank all who have been so kind to our family during our time in need, as most of you know my father in law passed away april 15th 2009 we miss him so very much and are very thankful for the time we had with him. i want to thank everyone for their words of kindness and caring that you all who have been here for me, i thank you from the bottom of my heart. i will be back asap and updating my blog as soon as possible. its so very diffucult for me as many of you know i have become very close with my fil during our many doctor visits ect we spent together. i realllly miss him alot and i can honestly tell you that i am very blessed having known him and loved him and had that returned. i hope you all take the time to spend with your family as time goes by very fast life is so very short. godbless all of you love ya my friends vicki

today was very stressful dad could not even walk and i had to help lift him up into the wheel chair then wheel him across the bumpy grass and into my car was so very hard for me to do hubby is taking off time tomorrow to take him to doc he was pissed i didn;t call him so he could have helped but i worry about his job too its not a good situation there at all so is the lesser of 2 evils ya know. i learned my lesson today there is no way on this green earth i can do what i did today am in so much pain i can hardlt stand it it sucks low on meds too so thats not helping have a great day today love ya all

hey ya all

well i guess its about time i logged in and posted a few things not doing much busy with dad i feel so bad for him i wish i could do more please pray for him or send him good thoughts he can use any and all of them so from our family to all of you thank you for keeping him in your thoughts and prayers.

today was a beautiful day omgosh was almost 70 degrees out where yesterday was in low 60;s and froze last night come ON winter go away for heavens sake.
been crocheting scrubbie dishcloths and will be listin some in my etsy shop soon i am going to list a few right now just for you to see and then if there is a particular color combination you want let me know i am sure i can do something for you i love mine they are so nice to use with the dishes. also am thinking of making a package deal with the scrubbies and dish clothes, anyone interested in that let me know i don;t charge much 2.50 a scrubbie or we can make a package and save a little more maybe depending on what you want, ok now on to other things



life is pretty stressful here for us dh when he don;t understand or can't do what he needs to do lashes out at me which while is not fair nor am i taking it i makes me understand but what i DON'T understand is why everyone picks on me with my meds. io mean good lord if you all hurt like i do you sure as hell would not be giving me advice to do other things people just don;t understand and no teapot not talking about you we already hashed this out. i just need to get this off of my chest. because this is such a important part of my life i feel the need to talk so please no one take offense nor think i am mad at any of you bnecause its not true what is true is i need to educate people. when one lives in such horrible pain that it hurts to breath then would you deny them some relief? say oh meditate or bio feedback or some other stupid thing that will not help, it hurts me more than anything to know people i care about and love don;t understand. i know those meds as any meds (including booze or tobaco can cause alot of problems (i don;t do either) there is such a stigma about narcotic pain medication, let me ask ya a question , if your mother was diagnosed with heart disease would you not want the docs to give as much comfort as possible or diabeties or any other illness would you not want your loved one to have decent care and relief? then why is there such a stigma about taking pain medication, and for those who think what about a pain clinic all i can say is been there done that 5 long times that only cost me hundreds of dollars for them to sit there and say nope your fine nothing wrong with you when all the while i am one whisper away from being paralized and confined to a wheelchair for the rest of my life but would that be better than me taking strong meds? why do people assume that if you take these medications you become a drug addict? nothing can be farther from the truth, i do not have cravings i do not ephoric highs and lows. all i get is a bit of relief. and as for the bastards who give me a hard time in the handicap spots get a frigging LIFE go play in the freeway as my mom always told the neighbors kids who were constantly at our house. course there was no freeway close so was not going to happen. is just a saying, regardless back off stupid before I create a major scene, and have no worries i will if you accoust me again kk stepping off my soap box vicki

VIRUS ALERT on yuku

i have some realllly important news for all of you bloggers who use yuku all i can tell you is i use to belong to a forum there and while on it with a friend she told me to get off it right away as it has a very bad malware virus that will trick your computer and take over it completely. this happened previously we notified yuku and thought it was taken care of my friend and her husband are very well knowledged in computers and things to protect them and while yuku had not had anything reported on its admin page it was still there and tried to take control of her computer , luckily she and her husband WERE ABLE to catch it in time, another member WAS NOT SO LUCKY and her computer had been infected. yuku has had knowlegge of this and has effectivily done NOTHING about it, my friend was able to capture tne entire URL so just a fair warning for you all

hubby made this back when he was younger i enjoy seeing what people make and thought i would share with you all his happy times now things suck we took our kitty merwyn in to the vet she has a upper respitory infection and cost us 250.00 thankfully my son stepped up to the plate and paid for it or i would not have any money left for anything and would have had bills go unpaid sigh i wish things were better for every one i am so tired of being poor, am sick of hurting and am damn tired of people treating me rudely like that bitch did at my docs office will blog later about it im just to worn out and tired love you all

morning all i have had quite the weekend lol saturday instead of working all day as we had planned hubby suprised me with going out to lunch/dinner. it was not really lunch time and since son made us dinner i guess would be half way between lol anyways it felt great to just get out there and relax, the gal who waited on us even gave hubby free dessert lol i didn;t want any i was so full, when we got the tab i noticed the last beer he had ordered was not on it and she said that was dessert and since we are returning guests is their thank you to us for our patronage which i thought was wayyyy cool

yesterday we spent most of the day with dad, i feel so darn bad for him , he feels like no one cares and i don;t think thats the issue i think its they have NO CLUE what to do for him. thats what is so sad. i know that somehow there has to be something that can be done. tomorrow he goes to his kidney doc who is also a internal medicine doc and hope he maybe can help with the meds dad needs. he will need something and the more research i find we are leaning towards steriods , at least maybe they will help his swallowing, like he said if he can at least eat then he will be happy and can live with the bloated water problem, so please send him some good thoughts or prayers or whatever you can to help him and the family to help him we need some extra prayers and good thoughts too. i hope all of you have a wonderful day and hope that this last week of winter is good to you, yesterday we had a variety of things going on we had wind rain snow sleet and sunshine all in about 4 hour period we had pretty strong winds last night and still have some today i know its suppose to be blustreery in march but dang it its cold and i don;t like how i feel from it it makes me hurt. oh speaking of that i am such a idiot, i thought i had to wait until next week to get my meds when in fact i go thursday and get them from the doc sigh i suffered for nothing. i so would love not having to take those but not happening . without my meds i would most likely be dead or wishing i was sigh anyways hope your week is a better one and that the weather god smiles down on you with sunshine and warm weather winter needs to go byebye for sure hugs and love to you all

morning my friends. ah if life was only as complicated as this little kitten swinging in its hammock. today we head to seattle with dad to go to the cancer care alliance. basicly now we have a diagnosis we want to verify it before he begins treatment. this is something anyone dealing with cancer should do. dad is so bad its heart breaking, i feel so bad for him,he can hardly swallow anymore because the lymph nodes are so big from the cancer is horrible for him and it breaks my heart to see him.please keep him and out family in your prayers and good thoughts today is a beautiful day sunshining and cold but pretty. spring is coming i think my flowers are coming up tulips are peaking through and the daffodils are up with buds on them , i so can not wait for summer to come this has been a horrible year and will be so darn glad when this is over hugs to you all

omg some people are total idiots

ok now i know alot of people know me from the old forum i belonged to for many years so i am sure some of you all read my blog too i hope so anyways, this has nothing to do with that site at all but about a member there who is out of control, i have a dear friend who is going through some hard hard times and she posted a request for prayers for her dh as well as her self and the kids, well this woman took a innocent request for some compassion and made a total ass out of herself. she actually told my friend that she was sure that the reason my friends hubby is on leave from a job was that because of his illness his bosses and doctors could not let him continue to work, then she proceeds to tell her that the reason for it was that alot of people who suffer from the illness her hubby has are murderers and that there was no way his superiours could allow him to stay , this woman has in past also made several comments about other situations, honestly i think she has some serious mental issues herself as she seems to think she is above all and offers misguided advice to alot of people, when we were posting on this site about our chronic pain she actually said we were a bunch of whiny people who basicly should put there big girl panties on and deal with life, but this sooooo is out of line i hope my friend sues for slander she has grounds. outrageous totally nutcase . hang in there darling she is a whacko not your dh . i know its hard but don;t let her get to you she isn;t worth your time love you sweetie

good morning my friends, life here has been very hectic i am so so so ready for spring to come. i feel like i have been stuck on a roller coaster that will just not quit i swear if things don't change very soon i am going to have a nervous breakdown. you would think people who work in health care would want to do whats best for the patient. its like this monday dad was scheduled to have a ct scan, he had to drink that barium crap and then hold that crud inside him long enough to have the ct scan so he drank the one on monday and then we went out there , its right in his records that he is allergic to idodine and that he itches from it. his doc said benadryl was fine no need for predisone, so dad took that but when we got out there the idiots said he could not have it cause they were not aware of his allergy. so he drank that crap for nothing. then to top it all off we had to reschedule for yesterday. the parking there is horrid. i hurt so bad from walking up the ramp and stairs which i almost had a heart attack climbing not once or twice but at least 8 times between the 2 days we were there. then i had to rechedule all his other appointments and now on top of it all my tooth is going bad again and i guess am going to have to have the bastard pulled but i sure as hell don;t know when and to be honest with you i am afraid to do it i know the last time i had a tooth pulled i suffered for over 3 weeks cause i got a dry socket. then to add my back and neck pain i don't think i can deal with it. then to top it all off the cost of it will kill my ins for the year and i have so many other teeth i need fixed, it plain sucks, some days i want to just step right up to a cliff and see if i can fly, not that i would but omg some days anyways now i feel better NOT life still sucks but i am plunging forward for dad everyone else who has a smart ass comment can shove it sideways bye ya all love ME hehe

hey ya all been a bit since i posted sorry for that.things are pretty much at a stand still right now we go to the oncologist today and hopefully will find out he can have some kind of treatment that will help him i called to make sure the results are in and no they have not bothered to get them so i told the idiot girl who has no clue as to how to treat a patient that unless the doctor has them we would NOT be coming in, there would be no point, she said oh i can get it today what time is your appointment ? HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO dumbass look, anyways she is suppose to get the results for us today and please pray that there is hope, i honestly don't think that he will make it much longer his breathing is ok but he has a horrible time for swallowing can not eat much more than soup i feel so damn bad for him, anyways keep him and us in your prayers will post more tonight hugs and love