Friday, February 11, 2011

sometimes i wonder

do u ever wonder why life keeps kicking you in the teeth, why nothing ever helps out or makes things any better,how do you come back from that

im so tired of the pain, the stress,the shortness of breath, not being able to walk more than 5 minutes without gasping for air, right now i wish god would bring me home, i wouldn't have to suffer like i am, my family would finally be better off without me , i wouldn't be a burden to them, then i think about how they would feel and make myself push forward i know if something happened to one of them i would be devastated so have to continue pushing ahead and hope and pray that god will heal me or at least give me the strength to deal with what my life is like

i know so many other people are much worse off than me and i also know that i wouldn't wish this on anyone. if you think im feeling sorry for myself, your right i am but i am also trying to not to and move forward. so hope anyone who is reading this will if you choose to comment will do so with some care and not tell me im a wimp, i am sooooooooooo not a wimp, just so darn tired of pain and suffering. to better days tomorrow god bless you all love vicki


phoenix_anew said...

Oh my friend, you are definitely not a wimp! I apologize that I just now read this entry ... (((HUGS))) to you ...
We hear oh so often how God never gives us more than we can handle ... and I know that's true, but somehow it's not always comforting ... :( It's tough to go through things sometimes!!! And I don't understand all that you're going through!! But I pray for you and lift you up to Him!!

How I wish I were closer!! I would run over and just kick back with you!! We could talk when we wanted or just be silent together ... :)

Thinking of you!!

"Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings." (Psalm 61:1-4)

vicki said...

thanks sweetie, you soooo made my day hugs and love ps wish you lived close too would have soooo much fun :D love you

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