merry merry christmas eve everyone today is our first christmas without so many in our family started on april 15th when we lost my father in law. he is sorely missed and always will be next we lost my dh uncle in september i don;t remember the exact date as we were not told he was even sick until after he died(he lived in michigan) then dh lost his cousin michael to cancer. he battled this disease for 10 long years rest in peace all of you. then november 17th my sister in yarn from another mother(and dad) lost her son tim to his battle of a brain injury may he also rest in peace and stop teasing your sister timmie with all the things happening without explanation we all know its you lol

then a week ago we lost merwyn my beloved bambina kitty how i miss her still

ok enough sad things this is suppose to be a happy time of year i wish all of you happy holidays wether it be christmas hanukkah Kwanzaa or any other ones i missed(and im sure there is and i apologize to my readers)

the new year i hope will bring better times for all of us the recession this country has been seems to be getting worse instead of better yet our government seems to sugar coat it

today i will be busy wrapping gifts and getting dinner ready for the kids to come over we are starting new traditions and hope that they work out.

my wishes for all of you is to have a wonderful holiday for those who are in pain i wish you a day free of it those who are depressed may your mood be lifted doing something for others and not thinking about how bad things are they are bad but brooding about it does not help believe me i know been there sooooooooooooooo many times.maybe you can cheer someone elses life up a bit go visit a nursing home and sing christmas songs help someone by giving them your place in line or if your able to maybe help pay for their groceries even telling someone to have a good day can bring a smile to their face and that should cheer YOU up too remember tomorrow is another day and while your life may not be a bed of roses remember there are others out there much worse than you., ask a mother who has just opened her door to see a military chaplin there or a child who's parent has died or even someone who has lost a pet it effects people different and this time of year is difficult for so many people .
people out of work, without money to make christmas for their children there are thousands of things going on

remember though that you are special to someone, me if your reading my blog make a comment should you want to i don't sensor them tooo much(i will not add swear words so please don't leave them) i just really want to say that you all are special to me god bless you and keep you in his care. love you all merry christmas to all and to all a good morning i know im a smart alec bewaahahahahahahahaha love vicki

rest in peace my beloved merwyn

tonight i had to do something that was one of the hardest things i have ever had to do in my entire life. i had to take my beloveded merwyn to the vet to put her to sleep, she was one of the bravest strongest kitties i have ever ever saw in my life. let me tell you about my bambina the one i called cara mia bambina the love of my life.

it all started back in august of 1995, 1995 had been a hard year had lost my beloved grandfather on july 4th he was 95 years old lived a long good life but of course that did not change the fact that my grandfather the one i adored was dead it was about the 3rd week of august when my little girl came in the house and said mama there is kittens in the wood pile. i said really? thinking it was a stray cat who was just visiting, but it was not. it was my bambina and her brother boo along with another little black kitty who was so close to merwyn that they may have been twins.

we watched these adorable kittens romp around the yard during the months of sept and october. i noticed the mama kitty had moved them around alot but they felt safe in our yard as we had no dogs all of us enjoyed watching these little ones at play figuring eventually they would move on as ferrill cats do, and mama and one of the black ones did. we had not seen the babies for a couple days so figured they were gone. it was the day before thanksgiving, my job was to get the turkey cleaned and ready to roast the next day had just finished the giblets and was putting my pies in the oven(you all know how busy the day before a holiday can be) it was a wicked night out cold snowing and just outright nasty windy and i had clothes drying in the dryer as i always was doing laundry every day that day was no different until i heard this little meow like a baby kitten. i thought how odd,so i turned the back porch light and looked and there was merwyn and boo sitting under the dryer vent trying to get warm(was soooo cold in the 20's with snow and blowing made it very cold) so i said to them where is your mama little ones, the both looked at me so trusting and just meowed. i said are you hungry? they meowed i took that as a yes. i of course had no cat food only pancakes i had made for dinner. they snarfed them down and huddled together. so had dh go out to the patio and put a box with some blankets in it for them and they stayed in there as long as no one was around. come spring i said ok they have to go or we have to get them spayed or nuetered. well the kids loved them by then and so did i hehe so was the later that happened. eventually i was able to pet them and they became our babies. over the years they became more and more friendly towards us, boo who was merwyns brother was much more friendly than merwyn she was always very reserved. but when she loved you she was loyal to a T. in 1999 there was a attempt on this man to steal boo my son caught him and threw him off our property. in 2000 after a severe car accident this man took advantage of the fact i could not stop him and he was able to come in to the yard and take boo right away from our property. we were devistated we tried to find him but never did. merwyn went missing several times she was trying to find her brother. we never did get him back. then as we went thru all the things dealing with my injuries merwyn became very ill in november of 2001. she had developed a terrible infection in her plura cavity(chest) the vets told us we should put her down she had actually stopped breathing and they got her heart going again and her breathing, they told me she had a 5% chance to live i SAID PLEASE HELP HERso she had her surgery to drain it they put a drain tube in her and off to the vet we went that would do it, she spent about 5 days in the hospital and then we got to bring her home right after thanksgiving, 5 years after she came into our lives we almost lost her, it took alot of vet visits antibotics and alot of loving care but my little cara mia pulled through.

merwyn will always be in our lives with the pictures of her we have to the memories of our special kitty. this cat was amazing. a couple of years ago i was looking for her as was dinner time and she had not come to eat. i found her outside the garage door staring straight at it and then running back to me as if to say mom mom somethings wrong, there was the hot water heater was leaking and about ready to explode , its a natural gas heater so god knows what would have happened had it exploded but it would not have been good the tank was bulging and already had developed a big crack in it we were able to open the drain and get the water out of there thanks to our watch kitty. recently she started coming inside as she was not as well as she had been before that she hated being inside loved being outside in the air sniffing it and loved to lay in the sunshine i took her outside the day before yesterday all wrapped up as she was cold her poor little body was shutting down and she wanted to spend as much time with us as she could, merwyn was a smart cat she knew when things happened or were happening she loved laying on the mat i bought at petsmart.com it is basicly a space blanket covered with fleece it helped warm her. i will miss merwyn the rest of my life as i do boo, but she will live on in all of us. that brave little soul had more courage and spunk than anyone i know human or animal, i hope i can be that way but im not that brave. rest in peace little one i know your with those who have gone before and waiting for us to catch up i love you bambina with all of my heart love mama

whats up with blogger

gonna try this again and see what the heck is wrong with blogger hope it clears up soon my bandwidth is NOT exceeded by any way shape or form hope its fixed soon vicki

nothing makes sense anymore

as i sit here writing this post i wonder why nothing makes much sense anymore, i'm refering to the senseless killings of 4 of our police officers on sunday november 29th 2009 about 8:30 am officers Ronald Owens,Mark Renninger,Greg Richards and Tina Griswold of the lakewood washington police department were gunned down in cold blood by a convicted felon Marice Clemmons . this coward went into the coffee shop where these brave officers were sitting having breakfast and getting ready to go on shift. and without any care of remorse shot and killed these officers for no reason at all. The lives of these officers families have been forever destroyed by this coward and those who helped him Marice Clemmons was shot and killed by a seattle police officer early tuesday morning (12/01/2009)

my heart and prayers go out to the families of these fallen officers.
i am making comfortghans for each of the families if anyone wants to help me please contact me, i am using worsted weight yarn as i am allergic to wool and can not assemble it and making the comfortghans in 12 in sq in red/white and blue or any of the variations any pattern is welcome anyone who wants to help please add your name to the sq so they may know how many people have helped make this possible. i myself can not do this alone and am hoping those of you my friends who do still read this blog will find it in your heart to help, i know is a busy time of year and with christmas less than a month away i know it is alot to ask, please help me make this possible for the families of these fallen heros. god bless all of you those who can and will help and those who are not able to but pray for the families anyways or send good thoughts if you do not pray i am not a judge of anyone elses belief and welcome all who want to do this for them. i will not publish your names here if you don;t want leave me a message in the area and we will get together thank you from the bottom of my heart i need 80 sq am making them 4 across and 5 down once again thank you love vicki