thank you everyone

i want to take a moment to thank all who have been so kind to our family during our time in need, as most of you know my father in law passed away april 15th 2009 we miss him so very much and are very thankful for the time we had with him. i want to thank everyone for their words of kindness and caring that you all who have been here for me, i thank you from the bottom of my heart. i will be back asap and updating my blog as soon as possible. its so very diffucult for me as many of you know i have become very close with my fil during our many doctor visits ect we spent together. i realllly miss him alot and i can honestly tell you that i am very blessed having known him and loved him and had that returned. i hope you all take the time to spend with your family as time goes by very fast life is so very short. godbless all of you love ya my friends vicki

today was very stressful dad could not even walk and i had to help lift him up into the wheel chair then wheel him across the bumpy grass and into my car was so very hard for me to do hubby is taking off time tomorrow to take him to doc he was pissed i didn;t call him so he could have helped but i worry about his job too its not a good situation there at all so is the lesser of 2 evils ya know. i learned my lesson today there is no way on this green earth i can do what i did today am in so much pain i can hardlt stand it it sucks low on meds too so thats not helping have a great day today love ya all

hey ya all

well i guess its about time i logged in and posted a few things not doing much busy with dad i feel so bad for him i wish i could do more please pray for him or send him good thoughts he can use any and all of them so from our family to all of you thank you for keeping him in your thoughts and prayers.

today was a beautiful day omgosh was almost 70 degrees out where yesterday was in low 60;s and froze last night come ON winter go away for heavens sake.
been crocheting scrubbie dishcloths and will be listin some in my etsy shop soon i am going to list a few right now just for you to see and then if there is a particular color combination you want let me know i am sure i can do something for you i love mine they are so nice to use with the dishes. also am thinking of making a package deal with the scrubbies and dish clothes, anyone interested in that let me know i don;t charge much 2.50 a scrubbie or we can make a package and save a little more maybe depending on what you want, ok now on to other things



life is pretty stressful here for us dh when he don;t understand or can't do what he needs to do lashes out at me which while is not fair nor am i taking it i makes me understand but what i DON'T understand is why everyone picks on me with my meds. io mean good lord if you all hurt like i do you sure as hell would not be giving me advice to do other things people just don;t understand and no teapot not talking about you we already hashed this out. i just need to get this off of my chest. because this is such a important part of my life i feel the need to talk so please no one take offense nor think i am mad at any of you bnecause its not true what is true is i need to educate people. when one lives in such horrible pain that it hurts to breath then would you deny them some relief? say oh meditate or bio feedback or some other stupid thing that will not help, it hurts me more than anything to know people i care about and love don;t understand. i know those meds as any meds (including booze or tobaco can cause alot of problems (i don;t do either) there is such a stigma about narcotic pain medication, let me ask ya a question , if your mother was diagnosed with heart disease would you not want the docs to give as much comfort as possible or diabeties or any other illness would you not want your loved one to have decent care and relief? then why is there such a stigma about taking pain medication, and for those who think what about a pain clinic all i can say is been there done that 5 long times that only cost me hundreds of dollars for them to sit there and say nope your fine nothing wrong with you when all the while i am one whisper away from being paralized and confined to a wheelchair for the rest of my life but would that be better than me taking strong meds? why do people assume that if you take these medications you become a drug addict? nothing can be farther from the truth, i do not have cravings i do not ephoric highs and lows. all i get is a bit of relief. and as for the bastards who give me a hard time in the handicap spots get a frigging LIFE go play in the freeway as my mom always told the neighbors kids who were constantly at our house. course there was no freeway close so was not going to happen. is just a saying, regardless back off stupid before I create a major scene, and have no worries i will if you accoust me again kk stepping off my soap box vicki